Today is a special day. My baby is still in my belly, but I get to see her (I think is a she...) once a month. And today was that day.
Usually my sister or my mother comes with me to this appoinmet with the doctor, but this time, the father of my baby came with me. It was a new experience, it feels ood, but not in a wrong way. It is really confusing, because I don't know what kind of relationship he wants, or what he expects of all this..
We are having problems since the beggining of my pregnancy (yes... this is all about... me being pregnant..), we are nothing to each other, not even friends anymore I think, but he want to be there for the girl, our daughter.... but he just wants the benefits and nothing of obligations.... and I have a lot of debts, and I have to raise a child, to add him to my problems.. he is not giving me abything.. but I don't think it is fair to cut him out of this. It is a hard thing, a great dilema.
Well, like I was saying. we went together to the appointment, and everything was nice, I really enjoy looking my daughter, even if it is on a screen.
I'm really sleepy, so I'm going to bed...
I still don't tell you everything hat has happened since two years ago but I'll do it.
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